Spoken but not heard

I seek refuge from satan, the cursed. In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful. Peace be upon you.

All praise and gratitude is due to Allah, the Lord and cherisher of the worlds. Praise be to Allah for the rewards He had given me. Despite the abundance of free time i have, i don't know why i am not blogging and putting my time to good use. I've totally failed my time. Not putting it to good use.

There are a lot of questions ringing in my mind. I am confused whether i am stressed or not. It seems that my hands are free but then i feel so fatigued mentally.

Praise be to Allah that i am contented with my situation and life now. Nonetheless, i've slipped into complancency with the lack of learning. It seems like my life stopped. My thirst for knowledge stopped.

I feel so sinful for failing to fulfill my duties. I've been so sinful lately with my words and actions. It seems like this state of contentment is ruining my life. Omg, please help me. I feel so guilty for not fulfilling everything. I'm like floating nowhere. Confused. Happiness is what i want but then i've become a very laid back and reserved person. No longer the Wandi i used to be. Peace be upon you. May Allah bless us all and guide us to the straight way. Insyallah.