Izharul Haq

I seek refuge from the cast off satan, the cursed. In the name of Allah, Most gracious, Most Merciful. Peace be upon you.

Izharul haq; the truth revealed. Today, i am not talking the book that reveals the truth on the bible. Rather the Izharul Haq here refers to me and the truth that had been exposed to me.

As i've said before, the truth when revealed, is painful, unpleasant and not something that many will accept. However, i've realised that the unpleasant and painful things are those that teach us invaluable lessons. Swallow the bitter medicine to heal yourself. Sometimes i wonder why is it so hard to get rid of certain bad habits after realising it.

Many a times, its not that i don't know my flaws but i just can't seem to get rid of it. I realise that i am a very insensitive person as i shoot straight at others with my comments and thats the reason that i can accept the bad things others tell me. I mean no mischief with my words. I just hope that others realised that i mean well.

However, being able to accept is not enough. More importantly, i must be able to change. Change for the better that is. Sadly, i doubt for the past 2 years i've made great change for the better. Personally, i feel that in certain areas, i am getting worse. For example, emotional management. Be it anger or excitement. I doubt i've learned anything from my past relationship. It hurts me to know that. No matter how much i change to suit others, at the end of the day, i am still not a popular character wherever i go. People just seem to dislike me or prefer me not to be around. I may just be deducing this from content analysis or this may be the truth. Whatever it is, I AM ABLE TO ACCEPT that. The problem here is that WHAT IS IT THAT PEOPLE HATE ME SO MUCH?!!!! If i know, i will change. If i don't know, i can't change.

Thats all for today i guess. One of my close colleagues went MIA after some problems maybe its time i follow suit.

All praise and gratitude is due to Allah, the Lord and Sustainer of the worlds.

Peace be upon you.