I seek refuge from the cast off satan, the cursed. In the name of Allah, Most gracious, Most merciful. Peace be upon you.
Sometimes, i think that i know this and that. Sometimes, i think doing this and that would please others. Sometimes others think doing this and that might hurt me. Sometimes others think doing this and that would please me.
I realise that sometimes if not most of the times we tend to misunderstand the other party. Whether its family, friends, loved ones, colleagues or whoever we meet. Thus, i tend to realise that emotions during a communication is very important. If we let our emotions affect us during a conversation, it might have good or bad consequences. In my case, its always bad consequences.
To you, i know i might have been hurt by your actions. Nonetheless, i realise that my actions may hurt you more than i am feeling now. No words can describe the feeling now. Thinking, seeing, hearing you just hurt me, gives me anger, suspicion and more jealousy. Thus, i think its better we stay apart from each other for sometime to erode the feelings since we had already given our best but things don't work out. I hope you pray for my best as much as i am praying that everything you do and get will be the best. Hate, jealousy and suspicion aside, i know you have strength and weakness. Maybe your weakness and my weakness just cannot coincide to give us the relationship that we want. Maybe, someone out there for you and me would be a better choice. It sucks to know that we have to go like this but i think this might be the best, for Allah is the best of planners, He knows what is good for our future.
Sometimes, i think that i know this and that. Sometimes, i think doing this and that would please others. Sometimes others think doing this and that might hurt me. Sometimes others think doing this and that would please me.
I realise that sometimes if not most of the times we tend to misunderstand the other party. Whether its family, friends, loved ones, colleagues or whoever we meet. Thus, i tend to realise that emotions during a communication is very important. If we let our emotions affect us during a conversation, it might have good or bad consequences. In my case, its always bad consequences.
To you, i know i might have been hurt by your actions. Nonetheless, i realise that my actions may hurt you more than i am feeling now. No words can describe the feeling now. Thinking, seeing, hearing you just hurt me, gives me anger, suspicion and more jealousy. Thus, i think its better we stay apart from each other for sometime to erode the feelings since we had already given our best but things don't work out. I hope you pray for my best as much as i am praying that everything you do and get will be the best. Hate, jealousy and suspicion aside, i know you have strength and weakness. Maybe your weakness and my weakness just cannot coincide to give us the relationship that we want. Maybe, someone out there for you and me would be a better choice. It sucks to know that we have to go like this but i think this might be the best, for Allah is the best of planners, He knows what is good for our future.
I'm sorry for all the things said and done. I just hope that whatever i said, the good or the bad, you put it to thought and rationalise yourself and judge whether i am speaking the truth especially when it comes to fairness and the past 7 days. Insyallah, i will put your words to thought too. To make myself a better person.
I'm sorry that we have to be like this. I appreciate that everyone give me time alone. That includes family, close friends, friends and whoever not. I will seek solace seeking knowledge. Insyallah. Take care everyone. This blog might be quiet for sometime.
Oh Lord, please lighten the burden that my shoulders are carrying know. Keep my faith strong in facing whatever challenges You may put to me. Amin.
All praise and gratitude is due to Allah, the Lord and Sustainer of the worlds. Peace be upon you.
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