The Difference

I seek refuge from the cast off the satan, the cursed. In the name of Allah, Most gracious, Most merciful. Peace be upon you.

Just a random observation. Sometimes i wonder if my mum knows what she is reading. Well, whether she knows or not, she had been au fait with reading the Quran. She does it quite beautifully though. Lately, i've been hearing verses that are familiar. Just like the other day, i heard to verse of the throne and today, the verse on marriage.

I know saying this will hurt others but i guess i have to say it. I don't know if i made the right choice. Things are so different now. Its no longer like this time. People change and instead of changing for the better, they change for the worse. There's nothing i can do though. This is to please them. Asking them not to do this and that. Or asking them to do this and that, might not please them. So i just have to follow them to make them contented. They refuse to sacrifice like last time. I feel so different and sometimes i wonder whats the point of getting together. I don't know why they are so intent on talking and using the past as a weapon when they want a better future. They just refuse to use think maturely. I think i am regretting this. I have just to be patient and see how it goes. Well, i guess this is retribution for what i had done last time. Maybe, i was like this last time thats why i am getting all this now. The only thing i can do now is just be patient.

Once again, challenges by challenges. By month end, i think i will have to go public. I don't think i have enough cash to renew my insurance and road tax. Once again, another challenge. I have i just have to bear the challenges of life no matter how hard it is.

Oh Lord Almighty, please keep my faith strong to go through whatever challenge you will put me and ease the challenges that i will go through.

All praise and gratitude is due to Allah, the Lord and Sustainer of the worlds.

Peace be upon you.