Control

I seek refuge from the cast off syaitan the cursed. In the name of Allah, the compassionate, the merciful. Peace be upon you.

Being attached to CNA taught me a lot of valuable things. One of those things i've learnt is Control.

At site, if there's no control over the ACMV equipment(s), you can't provide comfort for the users and make a mockery out of your BMS system. On the roads, if you can't control your machine, you might end up 7 feet underneath. At home, work or school, if you can't control your emotions, you might make a mess out of a small issue. One word, plenty of meaning and application that we can put to good use.

Well, it seems i'm having tough luck with women. Is it fate or is it just that i am not working hard enough. She's not the first and i hope she will be the last of what i called 'string of failed relationships'. If we get back together, i hope we can really really promise ourselves to do good and be good for our own benefit. I'm not hoping though cause i realise that i'm too much of a perfectionist. This is where i need a physchiatrist. I need to learn to work on some of my short comings. Maybe its time to refer back to the book. Oh my, in this para., when i mention you, you know who you are. I've never blamed you and never shall i slander you or speak bad about you. Thats what i was taught in surah An-Noor, verse 4 and also surah Al Hujraat, verse 11. I guess its time to memorize the book and put its teaching to good use. I know i am like this. Perhaps its because of my upbringing. Then again, today Abang Noor, the Keppel FMO engineer said, don't always blame the design. Blame yourself for not being able to make full use of the design and work out possible solutions to improve the quality of the design. In my context, God Almighty had already designed my past like this, there's no way i can change it, i just have to take it in my stride, learn from it and improve my future.

Wa la Haula Wala Quwatta Illa billa hil alliyil azeem; There's no strength nor power without Allah. Don't get it wrong the kalimah wrong. Many tend to misunderstand it and many more who abuse it. The Quran, is ambigous, flawless and it doesn't preach bad things.

There are people who just refers back to the Quran and say, oh this is just faith when they fail or when they are going through a hard time. When they are enjoying, the forget the Quran. These are the people who gives the Quran a bad name. Making people think that the Quran preach bad things, making a mockery out of the Muslim ummah and Islam. Like Deedat said, as much as there are bad people of other religions, there are also bad Muslims. As much as i'm typing this out for the benefit of anyone who reads this post intently, i'm also reminding myself to be a person who is grateful to God for His blessing and rewards. Well, till the day we die, we'll never know what was destined or not. As it stated in Surah Al-Fatiha, verse 3, Thee do we serve and thee we beseech for help. Work hard, pray hard and Insyallah, by the grace of God, everything we ask for would be granted.

If you think that the Islam preach radical teachings, terrorism and rubbish, think again. Don't point your fingers to the Ummah, point to the book. If you think the Quran is preaching bad things, point a finger at it and say that it is preaching the wrong thing. Rest assured, you'll never be able to do that. Unless, you misunderstand the teachings of the holy Quran like some of the Muslim men tend to. For example when it comes to marriage, a handful of them will claim to be able to marry up to 4 wives. They are not wrong but remember, Surah An-Nisa, verse 3, ...Marry women of your choice by 2, 3 or 4 but if you fear that you can't do justice between the four of them; marry only ONE. When it comes to marriage, marrying older women, divorce and etc, they refer back to the Quran and teachings of Muhammad(pbuh). When it comes to prayers, donations, taking care of women and etc, the use their own principles. They never refer back to the book. The book where all the solutions had been laid out, many of us can read it but not many can understand it. Any problem. You say it, there's a solution for it in the Quran. I assure you. Long before Nostradamus predicted things, Allah had already sent down a book where everything is told.

I really don't know where i am heading now. I just have to control my emotions, work hard and pray hard. Oh lord, keep me on the straight way, the way of those you have bestowed favours upon and not of those whom your wrath will be brought upon or those who go astray. Insyallah.

Oh ya, what do you think of Wandi being a taxi driver? I'm considering that for my future. I see a lot of benefit for it despite the contrary.

Henceforth, i'll try to write something from the book, which i have been reading the translation. I hope i'm sharing something knowledgeable for everyone.

For this post, i think this verse interest me the most.

Al-Quran, 2:3, "Those who believe in the unseen, keep up to their prayer and spend what we have given to them". I find this verse very very meaningful.

**I proclaim NOT to be an Ulama, Sheikh or Ustaz. Qoutations and translations of the Quran are from my off hand knowledge, IPhone app and the book titled "The Meaning of the Holy Quran" by Abdullah Yusuf Ali. Any misqoutations or translations, please appraise me in my tagboard. I'm just trying to put every verse to good use. Many of us think that His teachings are obselete and does not apply to the modern world. You are wrong. Nonetheless, to each his or her own. There's no compulsion in religion and you shall have your religion, i shall have mine.

May Allah, Al-Alim, have mercy on my soul for the lack of knowledge.